A few days ago I had a moment of self-awareness while I was writing these texts. A thought that made me stop what I was doing and stare blindly at the ceiling.
"Why do I bother making all this content?" Which eventually evolved into a deeper question:
Why do we bother? Why do we want to do better? Why do we create all these hops we have to jump through in order to improve? Why all the personal sacrifices for a high cause?
When the initial thought came to my mind, I was genuinely curious about the answer. It would be much easier for me to simply arrive from work, pop a beer open and play video games. Or it would be much easier to live in my home country, live at my parent's house and get a job without many responsibilities. Sounds quite nice actually...and at the same time, a nightmare.
I'm not questioning the type of goals someone might set for themselves but instead why we set them in the first place. The reason why we allow stress for the sake of self-improvement and potential success.
Is it purely biological? Meaning that each person has different needs and might feel fulfilled with less while others need more. Or is it the product of the way we were raised? How much family and society can make us think we can be more or settle for the basics.
Sorry if I have more questions then answers. It's still an ongoing investigation.