Woah, it seems that we have the same issue back then for you. You know it feels kinda frustrating when you cannot find the job that you want. I am always wondering what if I do have it.
About photography, it already came through my mind, but as you can see I am not that good compared to other big photogs out there. I still need a lot of practice, appropriate gears and exposure to be booked. And for now, I really need to find a stable job and a job that I want.
RE: You start to lose potential once you start believing in your nightmares rather than your dreams.