Saying you wouldn't want your partner watching porn without you is very telling of your relationship with it. It seems deep down you still have those thoughts that it's dirty and you shouldn't be doing it. I feel like if someone has a healthy relationship with porn they may not have a problem with their partner watching it.

One thing I want to point out is you write "anyways" a lot, which isn't a word. The proper word is "anyway" (without the s). Just a small detail I think would clean up your writing (and speaking).

You're awesome Brie keep it up :) <3