Yeah. One must learn to develop different tactics. But I'm definitely not trying to avoid it. I try to welcome it if it sneaks up on me. And you know, I don't get these heavy panic attacks anymore. I do have anxiety and I really have to actively not have anxiety to keep it away. It's still my "default" to be anxious. But I would say I'm not anxious probably 50% of the time now..compared to 99% of the time before. So if I keep this up I'll be Buddha in a couple of years. :)

I thought I was going to get panic attacks when my mother died recently. But I didn't. It was one of those things I was really afraid of. Because I knew it was a big event. (I knew that she didn't have long to live for about two years) But it wasn't an event that triggered any anxiety. It was more sadness. But unfortunately, since she died young at 60 from heart disease without being particularly unhealthy or overweight I started freaking out about genetics and stuff like that. And that escalated somewhat after she died. But I'm exercising like hell and staying off the sugar, and no nicotine (used to use snus..which is nicotine packed yummi you put under your lip) and trying not to become a hypochondriac. :)