Another day, another meditation. OK, I’m about half way through a solid month of daily meditation, and here’s what I’m thinking. I’m struggling. Not do to the meditation itself, but it seems like whatever I’m focusing on, is exactly what I’m MEGA struggling with for the week.
During last week’s focus on gratefulness, I was feeling pretty frustrated about my body in particular. My back pain and not feeling myself was really getting to me. Now, in similar fashion, on the week I’m trying to improve focus…
MY FOCUS IS TERRIBLE!
Whyyyyy!!!!? Meditation community of Steemit… is this a thing?? I’m not new to meditation, but I’m certainly new to daily meditation with a focus. DAMN!
Maybe I underestimated how tough this would be. Maybe it’s just a coincidence, and maybe I’m just reading too much into the whole thing and self-sabotaging...
But I’m going to continue. I’m going to keep showing up and doing my best. <3
At the very least this is a good opportunity to practice being nice to myself when I completely mess up! Yes. That shall be the plan. I decree it!
It’s taken me an embarrassingly long time for me to write this post so I should bring it to an end BUT I shall persevere. I shall be back tomorrow, and I shall NOT BE FINISHED MAKING MORE DECREES!!!
Your faithful friend and frantic focuser,
Dayleeo