I am writing this while in the distance I hear the bang, bang, bang of somebody hitting an object against the fence outside of my window repeatedly.

This is something most people could probably cope with though they may get slightly annoyed. I just screamed to "shut the fuck up" and "make it stop". (not loud enough for them to hear it because my fear on confrontation outweighs my sound-rage) I have been sitting in my room for 20 minutes literally mentally losing my shit while hoping for this sound to stop. Internally I can't even function; the repetitive banging sound has made me freeze up internally and the only thing I can focus on is that sound.

I was going to go shower to get away from it but decided to write about it while experiencing it so I can better explain the feeling.

Misophonia translates literally to "hatred of sound". People suffering can fly off the handle when hearing noises such as someone tapping their fingers, light snoring, or a water droplet from a faucet. It is not the loudness of the sound that upsets people with this affliction but rather the repetitiveness of the sound. I dated a guy for 2 years who snored all night and I had to change my entire sleep schedule and then wear headphones and watch things all night while he slept. (we lived in a place where all other rooms were occupied)

it's a difficult thing to cope with because you don't want to act insane toward people for seemingly no reason.

Just the other day I was at my friend Sean's place and he began tapping on his table top repeatedly. It went on for maybe only 2 minutes but to me it felt like an eternity and it was all I could do to not flip out while I started angrily at his fingers. I made it that time without saying anything because I know he isn't doing anything wrong but other times I haven't been able to contain it. One time my mother way doing dishes and was making a repetitive clanking sound (to make it worse I was trying to read a book) and I ended up losing it and sprang up screaming something about making the noise stop and stormed outside.

Oh thank heavens, the noise has let up.

There is not much known about misophonia and there is not much to be done. The person suffering from it can try to learn coping skills (which I haven't) and can use ear plugs to try to help the situation. I probably do need to invest in a very large box of ear plugs but I hate wearing them because I have a wax build up issue and it seems like a bad idea to shove tiny objects into my ear canal. It is said that misophonia usually starts developing when a person is around the age of 10. I remember when I was 12 the repetitive tapping of my father's fingers on objects drove me insane. That is where it started for me.

On that note, I am going to try, and likely fail, to go back to sleep.

If you have misophonia and it's bad enough that you feel you need support I just stumbled on a support forum online: http://www.misophonia.com/Forum/