Within us, there is a constant battle, a battle old as time itself, a battle for our soul. This ancient battle is present in almost all the big religions in the world, both existing and extinct.
The powers of good Vs. The powers of evil, this battle is what makes our life what they are - controlled chaos that is ripping apart our soul plunging us into a rollercoaster of emotions, feelings and mental images. So often we see people succeed and do something great for themselves, for their family or even for the entire world and then they crash, burn and suffer.
For me it was one hell of a ride, I started doing great with the powers of good on my side - opened a business, found a great life partner and was healthy and strong.
With success came the powers of evil, we are raised to think that we would have to deal with a big scary monster, that isn't the case the powers of evil come to us as sweet and wonderful temptations and distractions that slowly grow and become scary monsters, but they will wait until you become too weak to resist them. In my life, drugs, and alcohol started slowly affecting me, but the worst one was doubt in myself, a doubt mixed with a terrible thought that I don't deserve to be happy yet.
The people that are familiar with the law of attraction will tell you that you always get what you really want, so the law of attraction kicked in and slowly I started losing ground - first my business failed, then I lost the little money I had saved to a bad investment and an emerging drug habit, my health started to suffer as I got different colon issues but the one thing that always kept me going was my then girlfriend and now wife.
As I was lying in the hospital recovering from an ass surgery, she came to visit me and told me If you don't get yourself together, I'm leaving. As painful as it was those words changed my life, and although 5 long years have passed since those words, I really think they saved my life.
The powers of good, as it turns out, are often cloaked in pain and in challenge. If on that day, my beloved wouldn't have hurt me with those words making me stop all the useless, weak and disempowering thoughts, I would have probably been dead today. Lucky for me, she hurt me enough to push me forward and to make me build the much different and wonderful life we live now.
I can share just one lesson from what happened to me back then and today and that is Our progress is in pain, in the feeling we are alive and in the focused moving forward regardless of the challenges, so throw the demons of comfort away and push yourself forward every day.
Thank you for your time.
With love.
Eugene
