ARE SHOULDS THE ANSWER?

ARE SHOULDS THE ANSWER?

THE WIND HAS STOPPED
MY SAILS ARE DOWN
TIME TO TRIM TAB
BEFORE I DROWN
THE RAIN HAS COME
NO SUN IN SIGHT
SO I SIT IN SILENCE
TO FIND THE LIGHT
TAKING TIME
WATCHING THE WAVES
DEEP EMOTIONS
I HAVE STAVED
MY PAIN IS BURIED
FROM SO MANY YEARS
OF LOSING MY LOVED ONES
AND HOLDING BACK TEARS
I AM FACING MY MONSTERS
THAT LIVE IN MY HEAD
TO OPEN MY HEART
AND FACE WHAT I DREAD
AS I DIG IN THE GRAVEYARD
OF THE LOVES I HAVE LOST
FROM MISTAKES I HAVE MADE
ASSESSING THE COST
MY VEIL IS LIFTED
TO ASSESS WHAT I’VE GAINED
FROM BURYING THE SOURSE
OF MY DEEP ROOTED PAIN
I’VE BEEN DESERTED
BY MY OWN BLOOD
IM STANDING HERE NAKED
IN SEARCH OF LOST LOVE
DEMONS HAVE PLAGUED ME
THROUGHOUT MY LIFE
I FEEL ABANDONED
RIDDLED BY STRIFE
OVER AND OVER
MY LOVES FROM THE PAST
I’VE MANAGED TO SABOTAGE
SO THEY DON’T LAST
I AM A MAN CHILD
LOST IN THE WOODS
LOOKING FOR ANSWERS
REVIEWING THE SHOULDS
SHOULD HAVE DONE THIS, SHOULD HAVE DONE THAT
ARE SHOULD’S THE ANSWER? IS THAT WHERE IM AT? Cayce Kaban 1/11/18