I NO LONGER CAN HIDE
TODAY I HAVE STARTED
TO CLEAN UP MY HOME
TO FIND WHAT IS MISSING
AND WHY IM ALONE
I’VE WALKED THROUGH THE ALLEYS
BEHIND THE FAÇADE
PUTTING A MASK ON
AS MANY APPLAUDE
BUT WHO AM I FOOLING
AS AN AUDIENCE CHEERS?
WHEN I PRESENT MYSELF HAPPY
WHILE HOLDING BACK TEARS
I HAVE BEEN RUNNING
AWAY FROM MY PAIN
WHILE MY HEART HAS BEEN SCREAMING
TO STOP THE REFRAIN
I HAVE TO BE HONEST
I NO LONGER CAN HIDE
FROM THE PAIN I AM FEELING
DEEP INSIDE
AS I SIT IN THE OUTHOUSE
RELEASING MY SHIT
I PONDER MY FEELINGS
OF WHAT DOESN’T FIT
I’M IN A PROCESS
I CAN’T IGNORE
TO SEE WHAT IS MISSING
AS I EXPLORE
Cayce Kaban 1/11/18
