Not what we want. I don't know about justifying what hurts, but about trusting that even the shadows have a purpose in our life.
What comes out of this that I write is: How can I use this experience to grow? What can I learn from this? Really the key answer is to stop resisting and move forward. It is easy to write, but in action it is very difficult to do it. I know this from my own experience.
Do you know why? Because everything that happens suits you, even if we don't understand it at the moment, every situation brings with it a learning or an opportunity to grow, and often challenges push us to transform our perspective, to let go of what we no longer need or to discover internal forces that we didn't know about.
You are not here by chance when the shadow appears and we wake up, because yes, I have also had to open my eyes, since we understand that this shadow did not come to destroy everything, it only came to show us that something was wrong, that we were on the verge of collapse, that something asks to be said, and that something asks to be transformed.
I remember that recently, a shadow came into my life, it said everything in relation to my health, it was like a scream, a sign, a break that cut my breath with the diagnosis, something compared to a tense silence in the middle of a conversation that let tears roll falling without permission on my face, while I was holding what could no longer be held.
And there I understood that the shadow is not the.problem, it is the signal, it is the voice of all that we have been accumulating, without saying, without naming, without questioning, without changing. It was just hours spent without a soul, relationships that remained empty, only roles that no longer represent me. And a way of living that is based on duty but not on desire.
It was not the shadow, the convenient thing holding everything, it was us with that minimum signal bearing everything too long.
And how do you get to this meeting? To evolve... It is not with nice phrases or accumulating professional titles, much less spiritual ones. It is when everything you are not begins to crumble, when the character who held you can no longer keep acting, when it hurts but also relieves.
Because finding oneself is a risk, the false does not go away without noise, it falls hard and with each piece of debris, something inside us, they call this loneliness, I call it the true encounter, do you know why? There, without masks, without witnesses, without disguises, the real begins.
It's not a permanent state, it's just a threshold and from that threshold.we can make something have a soul, something that lives. The real thing doesn't need applause, it just needs space to be. We came to this world to love deeply, to lose and to get up as often as necessary.
Today I don't talk about anything but me, today there are many mirrors everywhere, but she looked at mine, at my mirror and asked me why there are people who don't want to look different? I think the answer lies in that uncomfortable change, especially to those who never dared.
On the cover, the northern lights from one of my daughters' house in Minnesota. Unusual landscape in these latitudes at least in Vzla. It is frequent there, it's just not always so clear to get to take sharp pictures, like this one.
With love,
Janitze 🦋
Any images in this post are taken with my iPhone 12, the Infinix pro-note 30 or with the camera Rolleiflex 2.8 f, and edited with Canva
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