Silent wear...

It is worse to be badly accompanied than loneliness. There are people who don't do anything “wrong”... and yet, being around them turns you off.

They don't yell at you, they don't hit you, they don't insult you. But something in you withers away when you're around these kind of people.
When someone criticizes you from hatred, remember: they are not talking about you, but about what they have inside. What they have not healed, what hurts them, what they do not know how to manage. You are not the reflection of his judgment, but the mirror that activates his shadows. Do not absorb what is not yours.

I want to talk to you about this today. Of the bonds that instead of giving life, consume it little by little. From the silent wear that we sometimes normalize.

If you have ever felt this way, I remind you that the reason why a narcissist is so attracted to you is no coincidence. It's because you have everything that he doesn't find in himself: your light, strength, authenticity, courage, integrity, values.

You have an energy that inspires, a confidence that is not pretended, a beauty that is not bought. They come looking to absorb what you radiate effortlessly. They will try to confuse you, turn you off, make you doubt your value, invalidate you... But there is something that they will never be able to steal from you: your essence, being you.

Do you feel tired the way I feel today... YES?

When you feel like this take the time to rest and recharge your spirit, a day or half a day, but do it. Do not let the harsh and demanding reality disturb you. May it be trust and FAITH that will give you back THE PEACE that you should not lose for ANYTHING or ANYONE, much less when you honor yourself with your actions and thoughts.

I understood that I did not come to this life to carry eternal guilt or to live under the gaze of someone who was left with an old version of me. I am much more than my mistakes. I am what I learned, what I healed, and what I chose to be after every fall. And if someone can't see the person I've become, that's okay... not everyone is destined to accompany our rebirth, sometimes being able to with everything and other times broken, tired, and, still, you dare to take a step towards that which you do want to be, even if you feel afraid many times it will lead you to the uncomfortable moment of facing your darkest truths and even your miseries, those that you hide under the politically correct carpet of “kindness or excessive tolerance” to be and look like who you really are not.

My true inner rest came the day I stopped fighting with my past. There is beauty everywhere says this benevolent iguana, in a contemplative state, resting, in my backyard.

Janitze.🌷