the problem is here

"if I don't make music all the time, I disappear and am forgotten, right?"

what you ve created will never be forgotten...
its about the vibes and the message not the messenger and in this truth you only facing your ego.
our system and internet move at lightspeed and we cant follow anymore, the structure of our brain is changing.
ambition is a lie
and time and space do not define who you are as an eternal being.

see yourself as a unique code, unique vibration that just need to be present in the creation of all.
all your negative thoughts are mostly fog in a lonely forest you are crossing to reach the sunrise on the otherside.
we are receptor emetteur ( antennas ) ...contemplation is key.