Hello lovely people of STEEM Blockchain and everyone outside of this great place!
Last 3 months were crazy for me and I decided not to write any post about it but the time has come to tell you a bit about what happened. Don't worry, this will not be a sad post because today writing this, I see a good time coming!
Anyway... I am practicing and playing American Football in my little country Croatia and last season was something I will remember for the rest of my life and something that thought me a lot. We were playing in semi-finals, trying to reach Cro Bowl (Super Bowl for my fellow Americans) and I got injured after a run play where I played RB (Running Back).
On my way to hospital with my girlfriend
At first, I thought or I was hoping that I only sprained my ankle but it turned out a bit worse than I thought so. I broke my fibula, that smaller bone in a lower part of a leg. It was a new experience for me because I never broke anything in my life, even tho' I was practicing a lot of sports a lot of my young life. I must admit that I was in a fear that I will never be able to play again. The funny thing is that I was constantly thinking about Will I play the game again? and totally forgot about Will I walk normally again? LOL That was my competitive mind talking to me while the game was still played.
I knew if we won this game that I will not be able to play in Cro Bowl but I didn't care about me not playing. I was all into winning the championship. The team was on my mind and I was hoping for the best. Sad and broken that I will not play but I always said Who is not with us, we don't need him. Unfortunately, this time that was me but the team is ALWAYS in the first place and I tried to encourage my team to win this even tho' we were struck by the injuries like never before.
Back to the hospital, the ugly side of our health system. When they told me that I broke my fibula, the doctors just put my leg in a cast and said to come back in 10 days. They didn't tell me to take any medicine that will dilute my blood so it can flow easily due to me not moving at all. Nor they didn't tell me to move my toes to keep the circulation going. Nothing, just Your foot is broken, come back in 10 days. I said Ok, thanks. See you in 10 days.
This was my place for more than a month, ugh
Now comes the part where I'm convinced AGAIN that mothers are something special in this world. When my mother was young, she practiced handball but got injured so she was on crutches for 2 years and had 2 big screws in her knees for more than a year. She knew the pain but was surprised how much I'm in pain due to that I just broke my foot.
And believe me, those 10 days were hell. I don't know what to say other than that. Every millimeter I moved my leg or any little nano-movement, I was feeling pain like never before. I could compare it to that moment when you sprain your ankle. I was lucky to have my sister, mother, and girlfriend to help me a lot with anything. I couldn't do anything without them. They were the reason I had some thinking time to reflect how alone we cannot do anything. We simply need to be together and go like that through hard times. I will never forget how they helped me when I was down.
The pain was that big that I broke my keyboard with my head xD
Luckily, I bought a new one
So, nine days passed and my mother couldn't believe that I'm in that big pain and she forced me to go to a private clinic to see what's going on. So we went there. The doctor was shocked when he saw that my fibula is not in place but 4 millimeters away. That was causing the pain I had because every move I made, that bone was puncturing the flesh from inside. So, the doctor said that I need to have surgery tomorrow to fix this problem asap because I could have a lot of problems if we don't react immediately.
Another new experience, another fear. Will it hurt? Will it be ok in the end? So many questions I asked myself but I was treated so nicely that they calmed me somehow before surgery and ofc, they put me to sleep and did the job perfectly. I woke up and the pain was gone but that was because I was still on medication. They told me that everything was fine and that they placed 6 screws and 2 titan plates in my leg.
NSFW :P
I was kinda relieved that everything went well but medication started to wear off and then another hell happened. I thought those 10 days were bad but this pain was really big and got in my head really quickly. On my way home, I was shaking, squeezing my legs and arms really hard so I don't feel the pain from surgery. I even started to sing Christmas song 4x time faster just so that my thoughts are on something else, not this crazy pain. I can't imagine what my mother and sister went through watching me like that :(
I got home and they helped me to lay in bed and then, funny and amazing thing happened. When they put me in bed, my mother told my sister in a half-crazy tone Did you roll him a joint? hahaha Now, you may not find this funny but 20 days before my injury, I told my mom that I smoke weed. She doesn't like it but she understands me and her telling something like this to my sister is really something that we didn't expect so we laughed like crazy even tho'I was still in pain. loloolololoolo
So, my sister rolled me a joint while I was in pain, singing like crazy and trying to distract my mind. Now, this is another moment that I will never forget because it saved me from going crazy. The pain was that big that I started to think Will this ever end? Will this pain grow bigger?and then I smoked a joint. Not the whole but one-two puffs. You know how it is, puff puff pass. In 5 seconds, literally in 5seconds, my muscles got relaxed and the pain was almost gone. It's not that it was gone but it wasn't affecting my psyche and it wasn't that big. I couldn't tell you how I felt at that moment. From the biggest pain I felt in my life to a relaxed state of mind and a hope that everything will be ok.
That first day after surgery was painful but after that, I felt much better and it was time to get back where I was. Not even where I was, it was time to be stronger, faster and better than I was. I learn from my mistakes very quickly and I know that I wasn't in shape last season and that was the cause of my injury. It was time to change that and I had a really deep thought about all of this and I decided to change the way I live so I can be healthier and ready to win the championship next season.
My first time outside of my home since surgery
Went to a beach bar with my mother
I am lucky that my mother and sister are good cooks and they love healthy food so they fed me like I was a baby. We decided that I need to gain some weight because I can't move a lot. And we did it, I gained 3-4 kilos and you can see in the photos below that I was having a good time here :P
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...maaan!
After surgery I had to move my leg but I couldn't do it on my own so I got help again. Then, I went to physical therapy for 10 days and did that pretty good. I really felt better after that but then comes the time where I had to take everything on my own now and start practicing and getting my leg muscles back. As I couldn't walk normally, that was my first goal to get it back. I still feel a pain in my leg when I walk but that is because my muscles are still not strong enough.
My sister helping me by moving my foot very slowly
I was keeping a positive mind and trying to do my best with recovery and then another small miracle happened. After a year and a few months, I got a new job in a casino. The first thought was Part of my 1st paycheck goes into STEEM. I was so happy that I found the job where I will work mostly night shifts. That means that I will have time for my daily STEEM activities like curating for 
Not only that, I realized that if I buy a bicycle that I could speed up my recovery so guess what I did? hihi, yes I bought a bike and I will start to create posts with 
My new baby
Now, I'm sitting here, writing this post having my new bicycle, new
For those who don't have time to read, TLDR:
- broke my leg
- had a surgery
- smoked some weed
- got a new job
- bought a bicycle
- having actifit plans
- waiting for my first paycheck to buy some STEEM
- wassup? :D
Thanks for stopping by,
Mr. Spacely
LIVE AS IF YOU WERE TO DIE TOMORROW and LEARN AS YOU WERE TO LIVE FOREVER.