I have always thought me better than falling into mistakes. That's the configuration I set for sanity sake. I value my sanity more than life itself. If something tempers with it, I'll sure deal with that thing. I've broken up with my lover because of my sanity. I've seceded self from family members because of sanity. That's the level of priority I place it.
I can go on and on with a list of things I could do for sanity sake. Why? That's because I was once lost. I didn't know who I am. I don't know what's best for me. I just wanted to feel among so joined the vibe. I did what every other person did just to fit in. Even having a girlfriend because the fine fine boys in my area had one. That looked like what qualifies you a legit guy to me.
When I left that territory, I found some guys that saw dating as small boys thing. Life is just one so flex it. I became the flirt type oozing joy from watching a girl cry from a heartbreak, especially when I'm the cause. I always knew the relationship wouldn't work but I wanna have my fill of this girl no matter what it takes.
When I got to meet a friend in 2018, he changed my whole mentality. I saw my flaws, faults and reasons. That's why I valued anything that was right. I feel right is sanity. If things go otherwise, count me out. Anything that was wrong happened to automatically become my enemy.
But this wasn't the balanced state. I needed to place everything in the balanced form. So even though I called my sanity, I live with others in mind. I put others first while still guarding my mind. This is my life and who I have become. I am Kistarry.
