No words are able to describe what you are battling right now, but know that He sees your situation and He will intervene at the appointed time and place. In 1 Peters 5:7 it says,
Cast all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you
Will uphold you in my prayers 
PS: Run to Him, your anchor in time of need
RE: Setting My Happiness on Hold... For the Sake of What is More Important - Redemption of two lives