There is something different that I feel about my bones, they are just getting better but slowly. But I think it doesn't mean that I will skippity-hop my way around the house any time soon, it just means that for the next year maybe if I am still alive I will be at a better position with regards to my pain issues.
I think that I am doing the best thing for my body, taking my Cinacalcet had been paying its dividends already for me because of the improvement in my pain issues. But I still have a relatively weak joints which is why I could not really walk normally still.
Now my body feels much lighter because there isn't much pain to contend with. I am still afraid to exercise my legs and for now I will wait until my pain issues gets into a more tolerable level before I would try to walk and exercise my legs.
But I can't really wait to walk again, going at the back of the house and sit a while and maybe talk to my folks there. I haven't been able to hang-around at our place at the back of the house for more than a year now, I can't remember because I am just always confined here on my bed because of my pain issues.
Soon I will try to exercise, it will be a good way to make myself hungry as well and enjoy my food in the process. Also a good way to perspire because when I exert myself I would really sweat out bricks.
But my main focus is to make my legs function again and give it some strength. I am now making stretching exercises with my feet joints and my arms. I use some light weight and my Calcium carbonate bottle is the one around that I can use to lift it up repeatedly with my two flimsy arms to exercise them a bit.
I do not want to rush with what I want to do because I know that bone healing is just gradual like in my case. I pray that soon I will get completely healed and all the pain will go away and I will be able to get up and walk even with the use of a walker. But I also want to take off Cinacalcet from my life and that I think will happen after my goal of surgery for my Parathyroid.
Right now I feel much excitement for my bone healing process because I can feel it already. The pains are going away and I just have to continue what I am doing because they seem to work. All I needed now is prayers from the ones that cares for me, prayers can move mountains and is a vehicle or instrument to God so that he may hear my longings in this lifetime which is just not much but to live near normally again without much pain and suffering from my bones anymore. May God help me.