It's one of those days. Those that won't have it easy on me. Once again in this horrible doubt. Let go of everything, or hold on to everything. Try to achieve real connection or don't even bother to keep playing this hide and seek game. Why would I want to?

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I want to change my words now, but at the same time I want to feel free to write this vulnerability. Optimism could actually be a big enemy of freedom. That is, understanding that freedom is the acceptance of what is, as it is.

![forest-pequueña1280.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/fenngen/243zVZ9fVY1hgaseLxBE8Pk1aPWDpmXvc8APvJbu5zjXovX6nbRd4nieKp5ZFBqb4EC6E.jpg) ^{[Source](https://pixabay.com/illustrations/forest-trees-fog-silhouette-mist-5855196/)} Simply be. Sounds simple enough. The one piece of advice that could save you from self-destruction. No other need right now, other than to simply, fucking be. Be right here. Be right now. Be in this breath, doubt no more. The vapor that escapes my nostrils tell me that it's cold. But I refuse to feel cold. I work on the energy of my belly. You could say that I should just relax. Go on and say it, it's not my problem. ![painting-4015461_1280.jpg](https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/fenngen/EpJZ4h6QicpxZDYAap9Ua1MWmhpJfsk1ibqWkPQtbtEiGJuZ9s3GxYhWc8D66xhyh7A.jpg) ^{[Source](https://pixabay.com/illustrations/painting-country-cold-snow-winter-4015461/)} I think I should be happy that I'm resilient. It could all go to hell right now. I could give up. But I don't. A warrior can't give up, it's not even a choice. The stakes are too high. Give up and everyone else will win, and by that I mean everyone that wanted to see you fall. It has to be a win-win situation. That's balance. Then you're not a martyr. Then you get to be happy and everyone else gets to be happy.

Jesus and Buda weren't good wizards. They conjured suffering before their eyes all the time. They manifested desperate people who were in the dark, and lived off of that, became famous because of it. Good wizards conjure light-bringers that are even more advanced than them. Then again, they never claimed to be wizards.

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Yeah, that last paragraph is made up, it's an interpretation, I don't know anything, this whole thing was made too complex for me to understand, but simple enough so that I could be sitting here writing these words. ### LATAM

Es uno de esos días. Aquellos que no me la piensan dejar fácil. Una vez más en esta horrible duda. Dejarlo ir todo o aférrase a todo. Intenta lograr una conexión real o ni siquiera molestarse en seguir jugando a las escondidas. ¿Por qué querría hacerlo?

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Quiero cambiar mis palabras ahora, pero al mismo tiempo quiero sentirme libre de escribir esta vulnerabilidad. En realidad, el optimismo podría ser un gran enemigo de la libertad. Eso es, comprendiendo que la libertad es la aceptación de lo que es, como es.

https://images.hive.blog/0x0/https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/fenngen/243zVZ9fVY1hgaseLxBE8Pk1aPWDpmXvc8APvJbu5zjXovX6nbRd4nieKp5ZFBqb4EC6E.jpg ^{[Fuente](https://pixabay.com/illustrations/forest-trees-fog-silhouette-mist-5855196/)} Simplemente ser. Suena bastante simple. El único consejo que podría salvarme de la autodestrucción. No hay otra necesidad en este momento, aparte de simplemente, jodidamente ser. Estar aquí mismo. Ser ahora mismo. Quedarse en este aliento, no dudar más. El vapor que se escapa de mis fosas nasales me dice que hace frío. Pero me niego a sentir frío. Trabajo con la energía de mi vientre. Alguien me podría decir que debo relajarme. Anda y dilo, no es mi problema. https://images.hive.blog/0x0/https://files.peakd.com/file/peakd-hive/fenngen/EpJZ4h6QicpxZDYAap9Ua1MWmhpJfsk1ibqWkPQtbtEiGJuZ9s3GxYhWc8D66xhyh7A.jpg ^{[Fuente](https://pixabay.com/illustrations/painting-country-cold-snow-winter-4015461/)} Creo que debería estar feliz de ser resiliente. Todo podría irse al infierno ahora mismo. Podría rendirme. Pero no lo hago. Un guerrero no puede darse por vencido, ni siquiera es una elección. Hay mucho en juego. Ríndete y todos los demás ganarán, y con eso me refiero a todos los que querían verte caer. Tiene que ser una situación en la que tod-s salgan ganando. Eso es equilibrio. Entonces no eres un mártir. Entonces puedes ser feliz y tod-s los demás llegan a ser felices.

Jesús y Buda no eran buenos magos. Ellos conjuraron el sufrimiento ante sus ojos todo el tiempo. Manifestaron personas desesperadas que estaban en la oscuridad, y vivieron de eso, se hicieron famosos por eso. L-s buenos mag-s conjuran portadores de luz que son incluso más avanzad-s que ell-s. Por otra parte, ni Jesus ni Buda afirmaron ser mag-s.

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