I decided last week to quit tobacco, weed, alcohol & coffee. I've not put anything except pure H2O in my body since Sunday and I must stay, I'm starting to feel pretty amazing now.
Not so much because I'm not smoking but because I am not eating. For anyone who has ever fasted beyond three days you will know that around this time it tends to get easier and the thought of eating doesn't seem so appealing any more. Life is just so much simpler when you don't need food.
When I decide to eat again it will most likely be the ripe tomato you can see in the picture, my first of the season ;)
I have quit these drugs a few times before but never have I done it in conjunction with a fast. When we deprive ourselves of drugs we are accustomed to, our natural instinct is to reach for the pleasure of food. For some reason, I felt it to be important that this time my only vice be water.
How has it been?
The first few days were very hard. I had a splitting headache which didn't go away till the morning of the third day. I felt completely demotivated and I apologise to anyone I've not yet responded to from my announcement on Sunday. The motivation and feeling of connection is returning now thankfully.
Nightmares
I was conscious that in the past, nightmares would haunt me when I stopped smoking weed, but I kept telling myself this time it is going to be different and you know what? It was!
I've not had a single nightmare, largely I think due to my specific request to the Universe that only the best energies come to me while I am sleeping, which I do as a Reiki prayer just before bedtime. I am more capable of controlling such things than I was in the past and this has been a real victory for me!
While my dreams have been quite pleasurable on the whole, the way I sleep has changed. Intermittent is the best word I can think of to describe it. It feels like I sleep in 30min chunks and when I wake I feel very awake, making it hard to get back to sleep. I know in time this will pass.
ADHD
My brain seems to move faster from one subject to another when I am clean. I wasn't diagnosed with this condition till later in life (2007) and naturally they offered me drugs to resolve it, which I refused. In the end I came to understand that I had been self medicating all my life with weed, because it slows me down a bit and actually helps me focus long enough to complete the task at hand.
Anyway, here I am, the real me, ever distracted yet unpolluted and ready to make the most of this new life of clarity.
Tomorrow I'm off to Blackpool to make a film for a rehab clinic which will be full of people who, like me, are 100% clean.
Love & Light everyone!
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Sam supports 
