The journey from creating the yoga challenge to this moment has been profound and life-changing. It forced me to contemplate whether or not I have been living my everyday life from a place of integrity and made me question my motives behind my actions and what I share here on the platform. To be 100% honest, I must say that I visited hell, where I fully experienced the darkest part of me, Anger towards myself. It was horrid.
The positive and conscious intentions:
- Spread love and Yoga
- Emanate peace
- Having fun
- Giving from the heart
The shadow of the above:
- Getting rid of emptiness and loneliness by finding people to whom I can connect.
- Fulfil the need of being useful.
- Looking for a sense of belonging and being understood.
It Has been a struggle lately to deal with the worldwide changes and accept that my family agrees with it all. They got the vaccine and, their choice made me angry and sad. I feel lost and cannot comprehend what the heck is going on? How come? Why?
Anyways, the yoga challenge came about from a place of lack and not a place of peace within me. I learned throughout this Yoga challenge that I practice Yoga because I experience a miserable state of being most days. Yoga is free and is an effective tool to move energy and shift a shitty mood to a neutral state. It also keeps the body healthy, but there is a taff side to it: I have to deal with everything uncomfortable that shows up.
One of those was: Why on earth no one participated in the Yoga challenge?
Immediate insight:
- My energy, if I am putting out a yoga challenge from a place of lack energetically lack I get.
- Peoples priorities are different. Not everyone has the time and space to practice. Not everyone is interested in the subject and, life gets busy.
- Not everyone is experiencing a miserable state of being! Thank god :D. When I reflect on what took me to a yoga class, it was despair and my last choice of all options. It is hard to practice and requires discipline and consistency to work.
Who am I to think that a yoga challenge is a way to spread love and Yoga? It might or might not.
I don't know how to conclude the yoga challenge. So I am, sharing my experience of creating a yoga challenge. What came up for me.
I am grateful to all of you who supported the challenge. 
I also want to mention my ideas for future posts. I will be getting rid of the business side of moon yoga so that I share from a place of integrity. Business does not align with who I am right now. I will be sharing with you whatever my heart sings: Yoga, Ayurveda, sustainable actions I take, what brings me joy, tarot/oracle readings, astrology, gardening, time in nature, my rebel nature, thoughts, feelings, inspirations.
I had enough of living to fit into societies norms. I have to thank you all because it was through sharing here that I was able to see this pattern. All I can guarantee is inconsistency. Nothing about being myself and create from a place of integrity is consistent. All I aim for in life is all my actions being for the highest good of all!
Much love, light and blessings
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