One Step at a Time, Slowly but Surely I will Improve Myself

During my College days I can have a few exercise by walking from our Home to our University back and forth same when going home. I am also wearing a backpack but I place it in front of me with a slightly heavy laptop on it. So my body before is fit and even if I am thin I'm used in carrying a laptop and that makes me feel strong, stronger than Hulk because that time I feel like I have unlimited stamina, lol.

I been doing that since High School. I walk longer during that time but minus the laptop and the walking time is much longer than during College day. I don't run out of breath easily and my body is strong as bull because I had plenty of exercise by doing that simple routine. Aside from that, we do exercise every morning and that really helps me a lot. I can even fight on long running and I won't feel tired at all ᕦ⊙෴⊙ᕤ.

But, everything change after I finish College. I didn't get a job because of my Nasal Defect and I am too shy to even apply. I shared that story here before: The Woman Without Her Sense of Smell and Sense of Taste. And because of that I stay indoor and only go out when I have to run some errand. I don't even exercise and the only thing that can make my body move is the house chores.

Because of that I got weaker and I am not strong as a bull anymore. Maybe just slightly strong than a frog, huehue. I got addicted into my smartphone that I only hold my phone everyday slouching on my bed. And the last thing I knew my low stamina goes lower even more and it become the biggest obstacle of my life. I am annoyed sometimes because I can't even keep up with my Mama when we go to Market.

I always remind her to slow down coz I feel suffocated blame it on lack of oxygen, the feeling that you're always out of breath. That's what I get from not working out even though they always remind me that I should look on the Mirror because I really become fatter now than before and that I should really execise. Once I finish eating I will go directly in my room and stay there until the next meal. It's a bad habit of mine that I'm slowly changing.

It's only months ago since I change my routine though most of my time is still spent on my smartphone. But compare to before I don't stay on my room until suffer without getting up. The only rest that I could do before is when I have to pee or remove some waste on my body. But now, after eating and doing the dishes I went straight outside the house and that is where I spent my time.

We have a small garage so I am just standing there and will only sit for a minutes and get up again. I also walk and walk while tapping my phone in that small space and later stop and stay standing. And doing that gives me a positive result. I notice before that after 5 minute of walking I feel so tired in that short span of time. But now I can walk from home to the market and from there to home and I'm still okay.

No gasping of air and all, I'm all okay and decided to do that small walking in the garage everyday until now. No time limit or what when I feel numb already by standing then I will start to walk again. I know I have to do more than this, I know that. In fact I already have the Jumping Rope that I bought last time. I plan to slowly begin working on my stamina again, I ordered it in an online shop by the way.

I received it last June but until today I haven't touch it and I am not making a progress yet - in my jumping journey I mean and the reason is Laziness. This is also one of my enemy when it comes to something like this. I can't stop this laziness even if I want to. I can be productive on my blogging journey but when it comes to my own welfare, I am always lazy, as in always.

This is also one of the hindrance of my Self Improvement, I mean the main thing. I know it's on me and if I want to I can make it work but what to do? Making money is much more important to me than anything else. And I can get that online, here and there. And doing all this small sacrifices where my body is at stake is the only thing that I can do. Yes, at the expense of my body.

You might say that I can just do it altogether but I have my focus more on something else. I want to do it while I still can and my body comes next. Money is really important to me that is why I can't do it all together. I can multitask sure but that little time that I can spend on working out? I will just use it to grind so that I can put more on my savings.

My mindset is really different from others as you can see, far different. But now that I am not getting any younger anymore I thought it is really time to make a change now. Some improvements, some upgrades and some developments by doing something else for my body. Now is the right time right? My progress is a little bit slower than to you or the others but I'll get there too, in no time.

And hey I am still making a progress right? I know I have to change right at this moment but I will get there soon. I'll make sure of that. I'm not the same as before where I don't move at all. And that's just the start. I will also remove the wrong mindset I have right now. Change. That's what I really need to do. And It will only happen if I move my ass now and dance dance dance.

Improvement to ourselves can only happen if we finally let our will to move and to take action rather than wishing for it but not making any effort for it happen. Yep, I am saying this to myself. One day, I will share to you my progress too once I finally make a move and when I finally grant not just my mind wish but also my body's wish. Ciao.

Image are all Edited in CANVA.
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July 28, 2022