Hive account@liketimmy thank you so much for the word of encouragement. It is very hard to openly talk about it because people in this world just don't care, but it is never an easy road to walk alone. Bipolar disorder sucks to be completely honest most of the time it is as if you are on auto pilot when you are just so exhausted. There is not many supportive people like you in the world and that to me means a lot. I am glad I could assist you in understanding a bit better so you can help others also understand better. Thank you, I have attempted the easy way out many times but I always thought about the sadness I would leave behind if I was not here anymore so many people depend on me. That gave me strength to keep fighting, once again thank you. You have inspired me. I also read your post on how you can't find a way to be happy for your dad. You know no one will ever replace your mom, and it's very heart breaking because you want him to be happy but at the same time you are afraid of his new girlfriend taking over your mom place and that my friend will never happen. It is also very hard and lonely for him too not being able to share something with someone, but remember your mom for all the good times. I am pretty sure that your dads girlfriend will be a lovely lady get to know one another when you are ready. No need to rush :)