Kitty, I don't measure every word you say (you didn't said I did, I know) You have EVERY right to blame people. For instance, the people who were responsible for you when you were a child! Those people are the very first to even hate! And you have the right to have a break, I agree! But there is no one who can arrange that for you! I do feel your suferring, in a way of course, I can't feel wat you feel... I only can imagine... But please, don't say I'm lucky. I have my own hell to go through. And wich is worse, I don't now. Probably yours, but that also don't have to be measured.