I had been wanting to draft this post but either unideal situation or my lethargy put me to a halt. Also it took me awhile to pen down list of names. Hence the delay. I think I had post-hospital exhaustion, or whatever it is called, but it is difficult to bounce back. I felt I am not my usual self honestly but I did not know how to describe. Anyway, not about this today. Most importantly, Jansen is well and alive!

_{I pray I will recuperate soon and be back to normal self to continue blogging.}

10 days ago my son, who has CDH (congenital diaphragmatic hernia), was admitted to hospital in the evening due to cough and fever for few days, coupled with an increased in breathing difficulty. Knowing that he has severe underdeveloped right lung (due to CDH), this is not a joke. We had our side of fear and phobia to deal with as he had once experienced collapsed lungs due to infection at ICU (1 month old) and we nearly lost him that time. But luckily he survived.

Back to hospital admission, Jansen's condition worsen towards the midnight that he became motionless and his rib cage sunk everytime he breathed. The oxygen support was not helping at all. He stared at you blankly and not responding to you was the scariest sight I had ever seen. Breathing became even harder, one could tell from his belly and whole upper torso moved in and out, trying to gasp for air.

We were at hospital for 7 days. The first 2 days were scary. He got serious until doctor transferred him to acute ward to be monitored closely just in case.

That night itself, Hive account@littlenewthings who represented Hive account@teammalaysia swang by to pass some goodies and snacks. Thank you Hive account@littlenewthings and Hive account@teammalaysia 🇲🇾. And my family, mainly my husband, mother-in-law and Jansen's brother came to visit every night - which helped to brighten up Jansen's countenance.

Thank you Hive account@michelleloh168 for visiting us and spent some time with Jayden, as he did feel abit left out sometimes when all the attention was on Jansen. He is a good big brother to Jansen.

Then on 30th April, my sister-in-law made a post which you can read it here for the purpose of crowdfunding and support. I know I have said it, but I want to say again, thank you Hive account@happycrazycon for looking out for us. We are blessed. Then "bam!", all of a sudden, I experienced kindness and generosity and tremendous support from you all fellow Steemians. The feeling was incredible. Never would I imagine we would receive such help and support from this platform.

Hive account@littlenewthings swang by to bear the good tidings, representing Hive account@teammalaysia, and me happily digging the treasure.

Hive account@michelleloh168 came to visit
I received donations in my wallet from wonderful Steemians whether for my birthday or to support Jansen. Thank you. Every little gestures of support, love and prayers count. Many of you took time to upvote, to comment and/or to resteem posts related to Jansen. Many of you took time to show concern via discord & whatsapp chat. And

Hive account@chloephuan93 even composed a song for Jansen, you can read her post here - how sweet of her. Thank you, Chloe.

On my birthday night, Hive account@josephinengpy even took time to cook sumptuous dinner and delivered all the way to hospital for us. She and her husband Hive account@patrickleekahooi bought Power Rangers to brighten Jansen up, also treating us yummylicious red velvet cupcake. My close friend Hive account@monicalee came to visit too. Not forgetting before that, Hive account@littlenewthings dropped by again with Hive account@zord189 and brought more coffee for me, and delicious jelly for the rest. Also I had super chocolate mousse cake from Hive account@happycrazycon for my birthday too. Thank you friends.

Thank you so much everyone. Thank you husband and mother-in-law and Jayden who came every night to bring stuffs and food in, while bringing back laundry to wash.

Hive account@littlenewthings and Hive account@zord189

Hive account@monicalee, Hive account@patrickleekahooi and Hive account@josephinengpy

Presenting Power Rangers to Jansen.

Home-cooked by Hive account@josephinengpy

Home-baked by Hive account@happycrazycon

Red velvet cupcake

Jelly from Hive account@littlenewthings

Thank you from the bottom of our hearts

To those who had transferred SBD and STEEM to me, bought SBD from me, boosted posts' payout & tip

Hive account@happycrazycon
Hive account@coloringiship
Hive account@jaynie
Hive account@zord189
Hive account@hanshotfirst
Hive account@donkeypong
Hive account@surfermarly
Hive account@the-alien
Hive account@bitrocker2020
Hive account@littlenewthings
Hive account@tifaong
Hive account@williamsyee
Hive account@nazirullsafry
Hive account@alismamasstory
Hive account@branlee87
Hive account@thelovejunkie
Hive account@prch
Hive account@legendchew
Hive account@chloephuan93
Hive account@roselifecoach
Hive account@arwine
Hive account@heartscally
Hive account@danielwong
Hive account@lynncoyle1
Hive account@ceepee
Hive account@crosheille
Hive account@awesomianist
Hive account@joannewong
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Hive account@sireh
Hive account@superoo7
Hive account@calebleejl
Hive account@maverickfoo
Hive account@deborism
Hive account@kaerpediem
Hive account@ladylei

To those who had upvoted & commented all the posts related to Jansen OR responding to me in chatting

(It is impossible to list out all, so if your name is not here, it is in my heart and in blockchain ✌❤. I also will not type out those I have listed above this page or else it will be double entry and will use up lots of space. Lol.)
Hive account@ethandsmith Hive account@apanamamama Hive account@zen-art Hive account@sultnpapper Hive account@whack.science Hive account@tngflx Hive account@tessara Hive account@rodznocturne Hive account@johndoer123 Hive account@dxn Hive account@crazybgadventure Hive account@redheadpei Hive account@traciyork Hive account@claudiaz Hive account@amarbir Hive account@raymondspeaks Hive account@yandot Hive account@justtryme90 Hive account@kevinwong Hive account@howtostartablog Hive account@pharesim Hive account@analisa Hive account@awakentolife Hive account@enchantedspirit Hive account@elizacheng Hive account@catweasel Hive account@fishyculture Hive account@bafi Hive account@magicalmoonlight Hive account@klynic Hive account@andysantics48 Hive account@kachinhenry Hive account@hopehuggs Hive account@sportspodium Hive account@futurethinker Hive account@broncofan99 Hive account@giantbear Hive account@ikrahch Hive account@inciter Hive account@hendrikdegrote Hive account@velimir Hive account@uwelang Hive account@bala41288 Hive account@orhem Hive account@connie1018 Hive account@jusipassetti Hive account@fionafavourites Hive account@michelleloh168 Hive account@viverridae Hive account@metzli Hive account@jatinhota Hive account@sweetpea Hive account@simplymike Hive account@thekittygirl Hive account@punkey Hive account@kweenbrand Hive account@vincy Hive account@perennial Hive account@bmotives Hive account@yekrats Hive account@orangila Hive account@patlu Hive account@angiechin28 Hive account@francesaw Hive account@davidke20 Hive account@khimgoh Hive account@joelai Hive account@esdee Hive account@jassicania Hive account@ardiy Hive account@adrianav Hive account@murtaza78 Hive account@cikxaijen Hive account@poodai Hive account@prfm Hive account@liewsc Hive account@karinzdailygrind Hive account@kimzwarch Hive account@veenang Hive account@clik Hive account@shaheerbari Hive account@mutitum Hive account@meanmommy33 Hive account@livinguktaiwan Hive account@insideoutlet Hive account@vishire Hive account@lola.lmma Hive account@mariannewest Hive account@gabyoraa Hive account@hr1 Hive account@karenfoster Hive account@redrica Hive account@alvinauh Hive account@ackhoo Hive account@sjennon Hive account@sam.hsuu Hive account@daan Hive account@hooiyewlim Hive account@reconstitution Hive account@verasj Hive account@kokuryo Hive account@mimulusamsterdam Hive account@wilhb81 Hive account@thebravesoul Hive account@itrmarcusliew Hive account@janicechua Hive account@kchitrah Hive account@joshuakhoo Hive account@wanaf Hive account@kay-leclerc Hive account@coachmelleow Hive account@cecicastor Hive account@supernovastaffy Hive account@annabellenoelle Hive account@crystalpacheco30 Hive account@crowbarmama Hive account@mummamonza Hive account@trucklife-family Hive account@digitalfirehouse Hive account@wakeupkitty Hive account@ayijufridar Hive account@foxyspirit Hive account@artwatch Hive account@nomadicsoul Hive account@bluemist Hive account@nickychu Hive account@digitalmind Hive account@vaelney Hive account@explorernations Hive account@kimmiecfields Hive account@vaelriey Hive account@caribbeanmon Hive account@bradfordtennyson Hive account@lymepoet Hive account@habeebability Hive account@mirrors Hive account@denion Hive account@bethrao Hive account@rayraymy Hive account@brighttux Hive account@tecnosgirl Hive account@uniwhisp Hive account@shuta Hive account@jacor Hive account@edward-ong Hive account@fraenk Hive account@byn Hive account@raj808 Hive account@corina Hive account@borrowedearth Hive account@hanbun Hive account@derekrichardson Hive account@teachblogger

To the communities that had rendered support, prayer and love

Hive account@teammalaysia - big thank you to big brother Hive account@bitrocker2020 & practically everyone in the team
Hive account@mywomen (aka #teammalaysiababes) - whom chatted with me alot via Whatsapp to support
Hive account@steemitbloggers - lady boss Hive account@jaynie who helped to spread Hive account@happycrazycon's post far & wide
Hive account@steemiteducation
Hive account@thesteemengine
Hive account@qurator
Hive account@steemsugars
Hive account@steemmamas
Hive account@promo-mentors
Hive account@asapers

P/S: If I have missed out anyone, please know it is not done in purpose, it only means my brain does not have superpower like bots (or ginabots) to trace back everyone that had shown support and love via upvote, comment and/or resteem. Feel free to nudge me at the comment below. Please know every gestures from you meant alot to us as a family and to Jansen (although he yet to know what Steemit is all about).

Jansen started to get better starting on the 3rd day evening, 1st May, which was also my birthday, the rest was history. Doctors were surprised that he improved in such a short time, considering he was critical on the first 2 days. We were discharged on the 7th day and now are happily enjoying home sweet home. Everything is well except he has post-traumatic stress symptoms which we hope he will get over it soon.

Improvement day by day

Papaya anyone?

A song of thank you from Jansen

Also a song dedicated to all of you, to express my husband's and my heart

"Thank You" by Celine Dion

Down and out, all alone
Sitting here, sad and blue
The sun is now going down
It's kinda cold, seeking refuge

Or just a friendly face
Or maybe just a smile
Someone that understands
What I'm going through right now
And just before I…

Lay me down to never wake
I look up and I see you
So with everything I am

Thank you
Thank you
Because you didn't have to
Thank you
Thank you
With everything I am
Thank you

For the real sacrifice and the truth
Behind your giving heart
And how you never judge or fault in me
Help because you want it too

And for your friendly face
And for just your smile
Simply understanding
What I'm going through right now
And just before I…

Lay me down to never wake
I look up and I see you
So with everything I am

Thank you
Thank you
Because you didn't have to
Thank you
Thank you
With everything I am
Thank you

'Cause when no one else would care, you did
And when no one else was there, you were
Now I am so aware
You're a blessing to me
What did I do to deserve
To deserve you
There's no words
That could describe
That could describe
How much I

Thank you
Thank you
Because you didn't have to
Thank you
Thank you
With everything I am
Thank you

For everything I am
Thank you… Thank you… Thank you…
Thank you
With everything I am
Thank you

Told you I can say "Thank you" many times, so here it goes again...

Steemit is really beyond blogging.

You come for the reward, stay for the communities.

You all are awesome! Steem on! ❤♨️

_{Who am I? I am a mother of 2 sons (2nd one is battling CDH). I graduated in Bachelor of Chemistry & Biology. I used to serve actively as a pastor and worship leader at my local church, but now I fully focus on taking care of my 2nd son and of course home and family. I love life and want to live my life with love. Why am I here? All the while I love blogging. So here, I can blog and share, at the same time earn some income to support medical needs for my CDH son. What do I blog about? I blog about life, family and practically anything under the sun that inspires me daily. I start to realise I love photography and freewriting. Most importantly, I want to have fun here blogging and connecting with people without stress. And do it with love and passion ❤😘}