I remember how it was when I got dumped by my girlfriend in a different life. I didn't see it coming, I was inexperienced in things of that nature, and I let myself be a basket case for close to 2 years then. At first it was genuine; the rest of that time (the majority of that period) I was miserable "just because"; that was a mistake because I didn't move on. It would be many years before I discovered "keep moving forward" (thanks Rocky Balboa (2006)).

We have things which cause of pain and keep us frustrated. We may always have those things, even if we find ways to diminish them. Ultimately, we just have to face those things head on, white knuckles and fear and all, and just say "Screw it" and push our way past it just to get on with the next moment of our lives.

It's like dealing with that ticking time bomb known as debt: we can pay it all at once if we can, or we can pay more for it later using the installment plan. No matter when we pay off that debt, it sucks and it's a bummer; it just sucks even more later, and by then it's more to pay off. It's best just to get through it and be done with it (at least until the next debt arrives).

I know it's a difficult situation for you right now, but I'm glad you're moving forward no matter what happens. We just take it a day at a time, and after a while the experience becomes a bad memory instead of a continuing bad experience. I don't have the answers, but sometimes it's the questions which are more important since they get us to realize things we hadn't realized before.

You have people in your life who care about you, even if they go about it through tough love. There are also people who support you in the world of bits and bytes, and no matter how different we are from each other, there are a few elements we share as human beings. If we can't understand, we can at least appreciate and empathize.

It's not good to go hungry, especially since that can lead to being hangry. Please accept this slice of !PIZZA to go with the bit of LUV from earlier.