Gonna be a fun ride. Have a nice day :)

I'm 32 from London. I have treatment resistant bipolar. I have tried about 30 medications over the past 5 years. I am highly addicted to benzodiazepines through being prescribed them by a psychiatrist

Over the past 6 months which spiralled me into depression and researching obsessively whether my diagnosis of treatment resistant bipolar will meet the criteria for assisted euthanasia in Belgium I now

I haven't been able tol write until today with all the organising from the move and settling into where I'll be for a while. In 5 days I've made some wonderful friends for life and met some beautiful people.

They monitored my every moment. I wasn't allowed out for the weekend. I couldn't stand the restrictiveness. It reminded me the other day of when I went to the doctor's with a cold and she said I had to

I couldn't handle normal life. Never been a huge fan of it. The loneliness kicked in and then the depression came with it. So I've been admitted to a women's crisis house until I go away. Am I in crisis?

I've been with my partner the whole of the Christmas holidays. It's been a great distraction from the depression and fear of leaving. But I can't go into February and everyone I know is now working. Also

Today it got confirmed. I'm going to Thailand for rehab. Too much has gone on in my life recently and London has cracked me. In my mind it's not real and won't feel real until I get there. Part of me is