Mommy's Mental Health: 25th Chapter summary and celebration 💜

I like to give myself a little pat on the back every 5 chapters or so. This has two benefits. It means that I can easily find my ramblings, and for those of you that have decided to come along on this ride with me, you can now find all of them too.

If anything, lately, life has shown me that it's anything BUT linear. It kind of feels like a bowl of two-minute noodles that someone microwaved in a Styrofoam container, which then melted, and then was dropped on the floor along with the microwave plate it was stuck to, and the mess that is there now, is pretty much a wonderful analogy for how I feel about the direction things have taken. Oh. My Lord.

So, I have to take a step back... and not grab the hot mess (yes, that's me) on the floor, and let things cool down before I try to start mopping up the mess.

At least, nothing is on fire - yet.

For those of you who don't know, I've been unexpectedly and abruptly let go from work. Sometimes the universe works in mysterious ways (as explained above). Firstly, I got this really cute new pair of jammies (photographed above) and secondly, my knees are getting the rest they've been aching for.

I'm also getting time to process grief for the insurmountable losses we've suffered as a family and I'm learning to love myself again.

I'm hoping I'll make healthier choices now. Listening to my true purpose and no longer allowing things into my life take me away from being the best mother and partner I can be and in reaching my dreams. I'm hoping to take this time to further my education and write my blogs and compose music and plan my musical future .

Anyone who's studied psychology through UNISA, please comment below. I've had this on my bucket list for decades. I don't care how long it takes me, I at least want to do my honours before I'm 50: sooner if I can (I think you can take two modules a year and do it at maximum over 8 years but I stand to be corrected).

I'm going to freelance to earn what I can but I have no intention of jumping into anything unhealthy, out of desperation ever again. I've spent my life working myself to the bone for people who will replace you in the blink of an eye. It's time to do what really matters.

Without further ado, here they are. All 25 chapters of "Mommy's Mental Health."